April 4, 2008

The Test

yet an other opportunity

thrown aside

disgust at my failure

at my ability to “follow orders”

I am no better than Hitler’s pawns

casting my responsibility aside

allowing it rest on the shoulders of others

boomeranging

it cannot be avoided

but comes back to haunt

once the decision’s been made

in fear of the outcome

I abdicated

and now its throne is occupied

by an other

woe is me

who longing faithfulness to death

fails under smaller tests

dear God

I am unworthy you

please move my soul to greater effort

with You as my only goal