October 18, 2019

Alone

they tell me I don't stand alone

when I say I feel I do

they tell me they’ve got my back

       so why do I still feel forsaken

they tell me these and other things

when I come to them for help

things I think they think are comfort

       so why do wounds seem not to heal

oh God! You are my only thread

on days like this I could not go on

did I not believe that You Are

       I stand alone on You

oh God! You must be, please

do not not be

if You are not I have no hope

       I may as well give up

end this hopeless tortured life

yield my soul to that emptiness

if You are not must be all that is

       why avoid the abyss any longer

I have no hope if You are not

this triumph over pain is senseless

one madness overcome by another

       if You are not I cannot be

if there is no You in all this here

I live as hopeless as when I die

today’s dark but eternity’s prelude

       oh God! oh please God, be!