February 2, 2023

Blessed by My Lack

I’d sometimes wanted to say how I’d come from a bad place

but I didn’t, so I can’t

I’d sometimes wanted to say how I’d once been a terrible man

but I hadn’t, so I couldn’t

I’d sometimes wanted to say how I’d been saved from horrors

but I wasn’t, so I couldn’t

I’d sometimes wanted to say that I have a dramatic testimony

but I don't, so I can’t

my brother-in-law, he noticed all these “I can’t”s and “I couldn’t”s

he told me I was foolishly disparaging what he could never have

I grew up within the shelter of a multitude who followed God

with parents who tirelessly encouraged me to follow God myself

my brother-in-law, he's a very smart cookie, me not so much

I’d never looked at my salvation from that direction before

my brother-in-law, he reminded me of a thing worth remembering

not to get so caught up in the drama I never got to have

that I forget about the comfort that never left my side