February 13-28, 2022

I can argue out from myself and arrive at God

it's very easy, it's not all that difficult at all

(as long as I can avoid the lies of my culture

and philosophy’s ever doubtful initial states)

all I need to know to do it is know that I am here

that's it, that's all I need to know to know God is

it does not follow that God exists because I exist

just that my existing proves that God must also

looking at myself I see something far too complex

for time and chance to have agreed upon

no matter how much time or how many chances

my existence, my being, is not a happenstance

you could never throw an infinity of atoms up

and have a thing like me come down even once

not even once, no matter how often you tried

I wouldn't ever happen by accident, I just couldn't

to claim that dust and ticks and stars and tocks

had the least part in making me strains credulity

to argue that I am a glorified ape only slightly less so

for to get from ape to me is as far big a jump

as the jump from nothing at all to everything that is

or the jump from non-life to life of any form

the only jump, the only possible jump, is to God

His the only power, He the only reason for me

looking at my nature I see that the God who made me

must for the same reason as my being be a god of love

for those better parts of me must come from somewhere

again, any number of chances and any amount of time

fail, abysmally, at making anything like my personality

neither these impersonal infinities nor judgmental deities

have even the slightest capability of sharing with me

even the smallest part of a personality that doesn’t exist

no, that I can love a friend, be lover to my wife

raise my children, carefully teach and feed them well

proves beyond the faintest shadow of the merest doubt

that the God who made me must be personal and loving

it cannot be any other way, there is no viable alternative

for as absolute nothing cannot beget the least of anything

so too an absolute impersonality cannot beget a mind

that thinks and cares and loves and laughs

all these must grow from God's greater source

mere time and chance and hope and wish will not do

and if, in dispute, you say "All truth is relative"

were you even right one of us must be wrong

you cannot add my truth to your lie and say "Done!"

for either thought is in deathly fight with the other