September 24, 2023

yes, i really did feel that way

then

no, i really don't feel that way

now

it has been lifted from me

after so many years

it has been lifted from me

Hallelujah!

I had been suffering from almost constant depression since early 2003, as near as I can tell, and off-and-on for years before then. But today I realized that it was in June when I wrote my last poem while under this shadow and that since then I have been able to wear a real smile.

It feels wonderful!

I am so very grateful to God that He held me safe during my depression and that He has at last given me freedom from it. Nothing that I tried had any lasting effect, I was helpless. Yet today I know that my depression is gone, I have been freed! And all I know is that this terrible darkness could only have been lifted from me by God, The Glorious Power infinitely greater than I.