April 25, 2019

I’ve been told I should see a therapist

I agree, but I’m kind of reluctant too

I’m pretty sure two ideas would come

out

the first

I should open up, talk, express myself

not hide my state of mind, or behind it

but

I would talk about it and have, in fact

only to hear those silence inducements

“Yeah but I …” (some help, that)

“It’s all in your head” (well, yeah)

“That’s not real pain!” (oh, I see)

the second

I should get out more, find a friend

not be so alone as to be bottled up

but

I do go out of myself, I have, in fact

tried to be a more un-bottled man

…

…

but it doesn’t seem to be working

in

I’ve tried to be alive but can’t, I’m stuck

my mind spins, useless, for some traction

with hardly anyone near enough to push